Flying off to Korea!

So this shall be the last post I post before I hop onto the plane towards Korea!!
Cant wait to go korea! I am excited yet scared at the same time..
I scared plane crash uh :(
I scared go there, my roommates is someone I not close with :(
I scared I no time to shop for myself and my love one there :(
I scared later I not enough money to shop :(
I scared I go there later lost or what :(
I scared I go there, I will kena tortured by them :(
I scared I go there, later the things too boring for me :(
I am scared that I will miss u so much, I might cry whole night everyday over there!!

But yet I'm excited to be able to go there.
I am excited about the plane's food (if there is any.)
I'm excited about the things that I can buy there
I'm excited about the Korean food there, woohoo..
I'm excited that I might get to see SNSD.
I'm excited that I get to be with my friends.
I'm excited that I am able to step into other countries after dunno how long..


Hahaha. I will gonna miss all my friends for the next 5 days. Or probably maybe forever..
I will miss my Family!
I will miss my cypher peeps!
I will miss my dance peeps, esp wanling, shi jia.. So sorry for not able to be there for FYP projects. Come back sure chiong with u guys ok!! Thats a promise.
I will definitely miss my J so much! Hope you will be fine and take care of urself when I'm over there ok! :D
This is the first time I'm going somewhere that far, OMG!!!
Cant really control my feelings right now! hahahaha.
Miss u guys && If I ccan online, I definitely will online and chat with u guys ok :)

Something is bothering me, I shall wait till I come back from korea, den settle with it. Tsk!!

Sunday! Had a lovely time with my parents.

Wake up early in the morning!
Dunno what to do!
So I watched one ep of my ghost whisperer which I intend to watch in korea!
It was nice, haha. A bit boring though. LOL.

I went out with my parents to LOT 1 around 4++.
Cause my parents want to watch some concert, so we went to sistic.
When we were there, we actually witness 2 kids shoplifting. But we nvr report them uh!. Dont think they were caught as well!!
After that, we went to eat.
Haha, ordered my pork ball soup and preserved vege again!!
hoho Haslin!! Remb what happened at Serangoon North??
My Parents bought food from the same store as me!
So cute sial them!! hahahah.

After this, we went to NTUC!
Bought alot of stuffs!
I think they were unlucky, cause I was there,
then I just keep on adding things into the trolley.
Then in the end, I think they must have paid alot. hahaha.
My cousin work there also. tsk!!
Saw her!! Hi Berlinda. LOL...
My parents were like hinting to me.
Say she so diligent, even work on sundays.
=.= I also wan find job ok, but no time and no one want to hire me!!

After that I went to WestMall again.
Go to M1 to renew my line.
Added wanling as one of my 3 M1 ppl which call them is free de.
Bo bian, she my sister mah!! ++ She is a m1 user. hahaha
My dad was very funny!
Cause we bought Ko Rou Bao(The pork bun, the one where got very fat meat and slim meat one!!)
Then he point towards a indian lady.
She wearing her u know costumes.
Then her belly can be seen,
then he jitao say, U see, she also selling Ko Rou Bao!!
Totally hilarious! My dad. tsk...
Wondering tmr I can get my new phone not?
If it comes tomorrow, den I am lucky, if not... sigh..
I flying off to korea tmr le. wooo.
Shall miss all my friends, families and also U!!
But guess, u wont read my blogs yeah. hahahha


U seems to be in a bad mood just now.
First time, haha, first time u give me a bui song reply!
Cannnot blame u..
But hope U already feel better :D
Would love to hold u in my arms when u feeling bad or down.
Would love to buy u good food with no MSG when for U to eat when u are not feeling good!
Would love to drive u around and stargaze so that You will feel better. :D
I really would love to be with you,
but there are many circumstances...
Its really hard to love someone...
As love is painful..
Dont even know can meet u tmr.
U need to wake up so early!
Sigh. FML. :(

A good dayout!

Today went out to meet Wanling at 5pm.
But we are both late! Hoho.
Very long time nvr spend time with her le!
I miss u siol wanling. :)
So we met at ard 5.30 or 5.45 or close to 6. Cant really remember.
But while I was waiting for her to reach somerset!
I went to HMV, listen to alot of songs, used alot of different headphones.
Totally in music world. It was very fun and being alone listening to songs, its something I really like, It just makes me think and feel good, can relax somemore.
I shall buy a speaker soon, and blast song at home, and enjoy it myself. Some alone time with me only :D

So finally she arrived, && we went off to shop!.
Sorry shi jia and yauming tt I cnt go with u guys to ur friend birthday party.
Feels wierd uh, go there acc yauming, den ltr come home, u two couple couple den I alone. hahaha.

Today total spent around $100++..
:( I SPENT SO MUCH BEFORE I GO KOREA!
wtf la~
Stupid things keep attract me to buy them.
In the end bought 2 caps and also 1 slipper.
Intend to bring them to korea!
Enjoy some quality time with them. They are so expensive. hahaha.

Today totally embarrassing.
Dunno issit me or wanling have the tag inside us.
Dunno is my jacket, or her bag!
But every shop we go. The alarm keep making sound when we pass by the sensor.
So in the end, its very hard for us to go to any shop!!
Then wanling was telling me.
Lets hook hand and go in tgt.
Then it really works! (For some shop that is!)
We had mixed feeling. It was like fun going in shop and seeing the alarm keep being switched on.
But yet, we were like embarrased, cause ppl tot we stole their things. hahahha
Wanling, this shall be my most memorable memories of u with me :D

Had a really cheap dinner! Cause I spent alot of money today!
Korea is coming! && I am excited yet scared.
I scared go there die uh!
Cause they say there got war now!
But die le also ok.
Got 100k for my family.
hahahahahha.


It seems so long since I've met you.
But its just been oni ard a few days.
Time just seems long without U.
U had so much entertainment going on in ur life.
Hectic likestyle!
I think I'm fine with ur lifestyle.
But do u even see a point in continueing?
U deserve someone better!
U deserve someone who can really be there for u when u need him!
U deserve a guy who do not think alot!
I'm not tt someone.
I think alot. I cant be there for u always. I am a lousy person.
Sigh..

Shops are super fucked up.

The shops were fucked up!!.
Went out at 6++ today with my Sister.
She drove us to westmall to meet my aunty.
Went there at first, wanting to buy LGGW620.
But never did i least expect that M1 doesnt have stocks.
So nvm, i went to try out starhub instead.
No stocks also!!!
So ok, i blame fate.
But I shall not let fate rule over me,
So I told my sister that I wanted to go to causeway point.
Went there, and I did the same routine again.
Went to M1 and Starhub to ask whether is there any stocks.
Still the same results, no stocks.
Super bui song already.
Nvm, den I went to the shop where I pierce my helix last time.
I saw a cap/hat lately which caught my attention.
cause its checkered. haha.
So I wanted to buy it, and i went to try.
Tried the size L/XL. but the cap/hat is red colour.
So I ask the person got any black one size L/XL!!
&& guess what, the answers NO!!!
I DONT FUCKING GET IT!!
If there is no stock, why u guys bother to sell anything at the first place!!
Why dont U just close down ur shop,
It would be much better for U and us the buyers.
So we no need keep curse and swear behind ur back..
Tsk!!!

So In the end, I jitao bui song.
I just go M1 and order my LG EVE.
Luckily can order.
She say monday or tuesday the stock will reach.
I shall pray its monday, So i can take it to korea with me!!.
If tuesday, means I need to wait for 4 days before I can use it!!
:( I no want to wait that long....
Ate Ajisan with my sister, she treat me!!
Its good to have a sister who is working.
hoho. can take advantage of :)
But I bought her a mask!!. HEHE.


Actually I love my family alot.
But I just do not know how to express it to them.
I always tend to be cheerful and funny in front of my friends.
But I am very cool and always the one who spoil their mood in front of my family.
It is just difficult to be the more positive me in front of them. :(
Dunno why also. But I love my mom, dad and sis alot..
My bro. tsk!! NOT SO MUCH!!
hahahahaha, cause he steal my room. As in he share room with me, which allows me to have no privacy.

Its been kinda cold between us eh!
U had a lot of thing to do and attend to.
Really just no time for me! I guess..
But I shall not change U or what.
If you're those person who care for friend more!
I'm fine with it.
Family dont say, who dont love their family de!
Haha.
But perhaps, I am not the one u are looking for??
Cause I'm a really sensitive person, who tends to think much about everything!.
Its really hard now.
Its been totally one week!
I kinda miss u alot.
&& I want to see U..

Its the start of holidays.

Today was an awesome day!! Maybe..
3D. Dont have to eleborate. tsk!!
Quite hate 3D now.
It is demoralising me.
Others so good. I so cui.. Sigh

Also PD, i haven even finish
Today due date for review 2.
&& I haven even submit anything!!
Shall just email advisor, ask him can give me some time not! :(


After that went to yishun with zuhrah to exchange our korean currency.
Haha, had fun with her. Joke alot..
Woots, cant wait for korea study trip to come..
Although I will miss u alot. haha..
Zuhrah says she realised I drink alot of water.
Am I ?? Maybe thats why I feel bloated all the time. hahaha

After that went back to school to find my cyper peeps. CH and esther had to leave early :( Sian...
So left haslin, shireen and some of us. Lina got meeting.
Finna ps us, jason ps us. :(
Sigh, So in the meantime I did some of my PD, and also photoshop.
hoho.
I wanted to put shireen pic up,
but yea, its rude, so I dont put it up better.
We had our laughter and fun just now le. hahahhaa
Sigh.!!
It feels like I really cnt tahan uh!
It feels hard to communicate with u.
With every small little things U did,
the more I expect,
yet the more I will get disappointed.
Ask u something twice today, yet there is still no reply.
hmmmmm...
I shall see what our future holds.
Will it be good or bad??
It shall be determined by our actions..
hahaha :D

Holiday is starting from tomorrow.

Congrats Randy, for finishing your internship le.

Good life now ahead le.

No need wake up so early.

Enjoy life in school le.. hahahahha

Momentum night/Bad habit..

Seriously today was a fucking tiring day.
Woke up to have my body aching all over,
due to ystd napfa trial test.
Although i fail 3 out of 6. tsk!!
Cannot even walk fast or walk properly.
My shoulder and back darn pain. Sore like hell!!
Anyway, met my fyp teammates from 11-4. We stayed there for freakin 5 ++ hours doing fyp!
Totally hardworking sial.

After that had to go cwp.
I jitao ps my DVA teammates. cause he's the only one in lab editing.
But I cant go find him cause i got something on.
:( Sry Zhi Wei...
So cwp, bought 2 ear stud. Total chiobu! hahaha
I saw one element cap darn nice. But cost $45.90.
Should I buy?? I am still wondering..
After that went back to school for momentum!!.
A few of them totally rocks.
I like all the modern dance one.
It was so so so so so good.!!
Got alot of feels..
I also like the NJC i think.
The one they all wearing white outfits and using chair as props to dance.
It was awesome!!
HHIG rocks.
Totally. I think this year was like the best year.
Hip hop item totally rocks the show.
Whacking. woohooo.
&& Shi jia, u totally overpower everyone.
It was very nice!!.
Seeing u from year 1 till now.
you improved by alot...
haha, hope u do the same tomorrow.
Wa lao, wanling whacking good de lo. hahaha
Yauming look like total nerd!! HAHAHAHA.
So tiring.
Dont feel like going school tmr. :(
Lucky Lina.... Sigh...
I totally had to erase this bad habit of mine.
Which is to think alot.
You are popular. you have many friends. You have good connections.
It makes me feel wierd. It makes me feel out of place.
But if i wanted it to last,
Maybe I shouldnt think so much afterall.
Just had to trust everything that comes along.
Hopefully it wont eventually break my heart.
Cause I'm not exactly the perfect person.
I might be taken out one day..
Soon. Or sooner... Sigh.. :(
I miss you!!!

I just feel insecure of everything I have now, cause I dont think i deserve them, especially you!!

Mental Breakdown!!

Think my blog kind of plain. No pictures, So i shall put some pictures up to entertain myself.
Once again, the feeling came back!
It feels like everything, every problems all bottled up inside me again.
I can hear and feel my brain rotting.
I think I going to have mental breakdown soon.
Seriously.

FML...

There is really only one thing that is good about my life now.
Which I am not yet sure.
Whether I might be able to perservere on.
I might seems to be okay.
But actually I'm not.
I'm feeling stressed out over U.
Its just, difficult. Its so hard..
FYP!! Money!! Family!! Friends!! PD!! School!!
Aargh, fuck it.
I one to go and buy one notebook,
write everything inside, and burn it!!
I might feel better tt way,
but thats also why there are deforestation.
Tsk!!!
Blog is just not enough, to really say out what I am feeling.

:( :( :(

What is this feeling?
OMG!!
Someone get rid of it..
Sigh, who wants watch momentum tmr?
I had one free tickets, I'm super pek cek about this.
Fuck la.. Aargh..
It hates when things came down to this point..
Whoever saw this post, can help me ask ard who wan see momentum tmr?
I had one free ticket. its 10 bucks!!
I seriously can die now!! FML once again..

All the best to my dance peeps for tmr performance.
Seriously, I think u guys will wow me right?
haaha, hope u guys still see my blog in order to see this.
Cause i'm not going to sms u guys. hoho.

I miss you, but I do not know how to bring this message across to you. I love you, But you just seem to be so far far away. I want you, but just cant seem to be able to find time with you. Overall, FML.

Busy on phone!!

Haha, I'm busy on phone just now!!
Lazy to blog now, so I shall blog tmr.
bye blog for today!! I'm having my greatest time in the world now.
I felt blessed :D Thanks..

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Busy with DVA!!
Shall not blog about ystd le.

Today is a good night!!

Today basically a typical sunday. But I had a not so typical sunday Night.
Shall not say much!!
Basically I really enjoyed my time tonight!!.
Took cab home!!
24 bucks, all the way from east side..
Called CH, Quek, Wanling, all unable to let me stay at their house :(
So sad, so have to take cab home.
My $$ fly le. hahha
But its totally worth it..
So I also dunno how this will goes on?
Yea, shall wait for things to go on naturally.
But dont want u to give up what u believe in before also!!
I'm not someone who will break other ppl's belief or motto or dreams de..
Sigh..

Not such a smooth night!!

Tonight thought will be something different,
but sudden bad news saying u wont come!!
The night just suddenly change.
But in exchange, we phone call one another,
it was incredible. & I do enjoy it.
Might get to meet u tmr!
It will be fun I think.. hahahha

Tomorrow should i take vaccination shot, must wait up darn early leh!
Plus all the way to tampiness. The clinic open from 8.30 - 12.30.
Sian, struggling on what decision should I make...

I ATE MUTTON SATAY TODAY!! Aries go down down down down down!
PISCES Stay Strong, FTW!!!

Today is just so smooth..
Nothing to blog about :(

2nd UT!!

Firstly, I wan to say! Liow Cheng Heng said KILL THE PISCES! , ARIES FTW! tsk!! tsk!! Pisces u know what to do le uh? lets go eat some mutton!!! Haha.
Today coding, class i'm barely survived. Ut = CMI liao..
Went with quek to sembawang to take our vacination shot today! We were there early, they were having break and there is no one, so we went to eat first. How we know that when we went back, there are no more vacination shot le, all used finish. They had only remaining 5 left! && we are the 7th & 8th person to be there. So suay sial!! In the end nvr take.
But had a good time with her, LOL. She even offer to help me buy drink!! So good, THANK YOU QUEKY. Saw her ehem ehem, not bad uh. where got ugly?? tsk.
Went back to school to find the cypher peeps later, but hor we cannot play L4D, something went wrong, dunno what.. :(
Really tempted to buy the motorola milestone, But i had no starhub plan. Anyone have? Want to lend me??
I very double minded now. I wanted to be a filial son, and not buy the phone and save money, cause our family now like broke.
Yet, I wanna buy the phone, cause I want to be able to give myself luxury. OMG!! How???
Kind of having the 自暴自弃 feeling, been adding alot of people on facebook!! Want to know more ppl, see more, and get hurt more!! hahaha.
Pisces really cant live if they have no specific person to love. I'm just feeling so lost now, dunno where my right route is! I wanted the find the person back again, so my life will be meaningful once again. hmmm. Not U ok, someone else.. haha..
Might have fyp/shopping tmr, dont want spend so much money le! I want to save! Finna, can u be my financial person too. HAHA, but I think I managed my own finance better den u! haha, cause u now is officially a blogshop-fanatics. HOHO!
Ch: get well soon!
Esther: Cool down some more!! We finally found one more pisces, be happy!!
Lina: 2 days without tiko, good good, keep up the good work!! hahah
Haslin: Stop being so moody hor! hmph, hahaha.
Cheryl: Lol, where got dont look like me? The pic so cute, just like me!!
CH && Jason: PISCES FTW more!! Aries go one side!!

Another day!!

Another edited photo, OMG, look so fake, But ehem, tt pose is my original post ok. I did not photoshop the post hor. HMPH!! This was my zi lian post like when I was sec 4 or year 1 i think. But lately no more zi lian le. Now grow up le, my pose more mature le. hahaa, Although I still like the 007 and twist pose!!
Anyway today 3D, had much fun in class, but it was boring. Hope school everyday illustration and photoshop, I would be so happy!!. Jump for joy.
Met finna and went to find CH just now. Esther came shortly, then after that everyone came!! Took the time out to photohshop that picture just now.
Finally I downloaded adam lamber- whataya want from me! So nice!!
Talk to Jon in msn! So long nvr tok to him le. OMG, miss him so much.. Sms halfway, I send a 2 page sms, den I forget when I send 2 page sms, need to press yes den can send, den I just leave it there, by the time I realised, it was too late. Guess he's asleep now le. I shall jio u out during holidays ok, nvr actually met u before. hoho.
I finally able to let things go the way it should be. U heart desire it tt much, and I'm giving it to U now. I shall leave those who wants me to leave them alone..
Can't wait for korea to come, its on 31 may. Havent pack yet, OMG..
Should pack soon liao!!
Saturday should I go FYP meeting with my teammates?!?! Buts its a weekend, I feel like shopping more, unless u guys can promise me Soup Spoon den lets meet, haha. Miss soup spoon siol!
Seriously, honestly speaking, I'm quite despo for love. HAHA. Just seeing everyone tgt, makes me kinda jealous!! But i'm not gonna be impulsive again. haha.
Lina: 1 day is over, and theres no tikoness, not bad not bad! Keep up the good work!!
Finna: Dont feel so negative liao, got me here, anything come confide in me ok?? haha
CH: Dont Partial school again hor!!
Haslin: Dont so angry le, haha, u know what i mean.!!
Esther: Take things slow ok!! Or else, u will be boiled fish. :D
Sometimes I wonder? Am i consider cute or handsome or ugly? Why I just cant make someone stay beside me if i'm handsome or cute. If i'm ugly, understandable. Thinking alot about this type of questions, Guess image do affectssss everything. I still think I myself ok leh, Sigh.. Anyone? Lol. Kinda BHB!! But yea, if u dont blow ur own trumpet, who is going to blow for u???

UT! OMG...

Ut sucks, I totally flunk my UT after revising on all the 6p's today. Guess it doesnt work, I didnt understand it deeply. I shall study harder from now on. Going to work so hard tomorrow for my 2D's UT. Going to ask questions to answer my doubts. I want to try to get higher den just a 3.06 GPA. Cannot lose to zuhrah.
Wa, so tempted to change phone. Randy got a new phone, milestone from motorola. Its an android phone, It looks nice, and best of all, it has a keypad plus touchscreen. Wanting to get that phone, but lately i'm broke. Wondering what to do, dont even have a starhub line!! OMG..
Lina and finna are funny, they are totally cracking me up. Crack crack crack!! Lina say she is not going to be tiko for the next one week!! Shall see how long she can survive! hoho, if u can really dont tiko for one week, I shall treat u ice milo ok? :D
Ut must study, and another impt thing is my dance peeps. Shi jia, wanling and yauming. Lets go out!! I suddenly miss u guys so much! Saturday lets meet if we have the time! can? can???
Wanting to go back to dance, learn more locking from forest. Realise my freestyle and technique were lousy, even the new batch are better than me. Had to be strong in something, or else I will be disqualified. LOCKING HERE I COME!! But hope I really got the time to dance.. Fuck FYP, Fuck PD!!
Oh yea! I might find one day to upload pictures from when I am year 1 till now. Guess it would be quite fun to do that, but wait till I have the time! hahaha.
My patience ran out. You said the total same thing like someone last time said to me! This is xtreme for me, I am giving up. U really demoralise me. Thats all.

I really want u badly!

As the title goes, Today is a nt bad day..

Not going to blog for today. I'm having my own solo time with my own emotions, feelings and thinking.
&& I want u badly.
*Sry to lina for tie-ing u up today. :(

Photoshop!!

This is what I do today!! How to cheat people feelings!! Photoshop. Photoshop away few several things if u guys manage to figure it out. HOHO. && Its a new face. ok la, it still look like me, like no different. Cause faci wants natural look, so here I am, without any complicated photoshop also.. But I normally do not do something like that, my picture from before all v natural de. hoho.
Now in school with My peeps again, Internet just revived. But all like so bored. hoho. Want to see alice in wonderland, but finna not here.
Just now Jinglie and I went to stalk CH and pisces. The scene was so funny. Jinglie try to hide behind a plant and using it to move around blocking their vision, not allowing them to see him. But he was big, plus I am behind him, and a plant is moving. =.= It is so not difficult to see that we were there lo.
UT(s) are coming, seriously no mood to study, should I flunk my UT(s)? hmmm
Anyway I had twitter: http://twitter.com/Acjh0313 .
Ya finna was right, What is mine will be mine, if it is not mine, no use in thinking or doing anymore. So yeah, Will try to change my mindset to this, Its no use trying so hard still if you see no end results.
Today had an awkward moment again, ya, it really makes me confirm about my doubts which I asked u about. Dont know whats wrong with u as well? being rude ystd. Whether its purposely or what, I shall have no rights to say tt. I were there ystd, and yet you said nth when u leave. Speechless, if u want to end this, just tell me, no use having cold war behind my back.
Hope can find someone soon to stop me from thinking about U. Pisces are flirts, I will change my mind very fast de, i believe so. * Although it did not happen before. sigh....
Really wanted to find someone to talk to.. But theres just dont have the right person that i can share my problem with!! Cause it might blow the whole thing up. Want to tok to randy about this problem, but he's darn busy.. Fuck, Hate this feeling, want to get out of there asap. Can I just leave without saying? Can I just make up my mind and follow it through? Its getting meaningless down the road!

is A really a afterall?

Yesterday slept at 3-4 am. Around there.. Today the freshies woke up at 8, and I am still sleeping there. tsk. What lousy senior I am, i know i know. I am lousy, but sleep more important siol. It comes to the time where I am too old to wake up early le. LOL, cause old people need more rest.
After tt, etc etc.. We had our showcase of freshies group. Overall they are not bad, in terms of techinque and bond, they are much stronger than last few batches I think. But they are way too weak, dunno issit cause of the PT, they keep having cramps. Tsk! But I shall not say much though.
I am starving, had a cup noodle in the afternoon, and after tt starve all the way till I reach home at 7++ den i start to ate my dinner. Blame the rain, make me could not go home, but my mom and sis came to fetch me, hoho, i saved my taxi fee, and a free ride home, its worth it for the wait. Since I myself am chatting with haslin, CH and kevan when I am in studio also, They entertain me.
Actually intend to chat with the others when i reach home just now, but went to watch last friends though. Then watching halfway, I fell asleep. && Darn it, I just ate, and i immediately went to slp, Now my stomach like fat liao. Brrrr. Must work out.
Woke up at 10++, immed want to bath, but F tt cockroach, keep wandering here and there in my bathroom wall, makes me cnt bath. Darn U cockroach, Darn u for living so long..
Ask u for the second time today, whats up with ur nick. && the finally I got the answer. But Dont really believe thats what U wanted to say. The answer should be yes, as I myself know it too. How to trust U, when ur actions and the things u said now, dont even tally with the one before..
[EDITED] I will try to leave u alone for now, Maybe we all need time to think about things, so yeah.. Its okay if u did not want to say hi or bye to me anymore.
Fuck friends who cnt even say honest things to you even if u are the one to keep asking them to say. So much for initiative..
&& this is for U. YES!!!! I am avoiding U, I really dont feel lile talking to you, not about anything. If u want, we could stay as friends, as long as you dont bring up any incident anymore. I really no want to think about it nor even talk about it. Yes, I am childish, so what? Its my way of doing things.. You have no right to say me ok. You have your limit, so does me.. Dont keep thinking its all about U. When u ask can we talk? think about my feeling too before u even comment about anything..
I know sometimes U kinda out of topic with us, so what? People changes to their environment, You can change urs, instead of just not talking, do try ya.. I miss the talkative you.. :D

Boot camp!!

Today was a day in boot camp!! So I had to stay over in school. A good thing is that I can spend time with my dance peeps and also enjoy free aircon. Bad thing is NO BED!!!.
So today I came school with haslin and CH to study, we went to have KFC, its been almost a long time since we ever had KFC. Its delicious lickin good. hahaha.
So shortly we came to school. I keep running around and neglecting Ch and haslin. My bad, i'm sorry if you guys feel lonely. :( sorry sorry
I had fun with walkie talkie today. Although kena said tt I should not be having tt walkie talkie. Sigh. Feel so useless in this camp suddenly. Last year had a better time as I got something to do. This time, they are way much more independant. So, i shall slack my way though then. :D
So now, just went to pasar malam bought food, seriously i buy alot. && I managed to eat finish. Now my stomach darn big. hohoho, feel so blessed when i can eat good food.
Having fyp later. guess it will be a long night afterall.
Darn it, I'm so thirsty after drinking the 2 bird nest drink, its making me wanting to drink more.. but pasar malam close le. How???
So today I know something shocking. Sigh, why issit so?? Seriously if things were like what it is, I really dunno how to handle. It is really quite irritating to find temporary love, but you just could not settle down with some love that last forever.
I really love this particular person, but fate says no. && suddenly someone come interfere in? so if you were me? what would u do??? I dont want to give up, but aargh, this person, so irritating, keep being cold to me.. Fine fine.. Fuck. I seriously quite pissed off. Maybe yea, sensitive or what. I'm me, why cant i be sensitive??? Where got ppl not be sensitive over something they love? Will they be like u, just let it go like nothing happen like that??
Kinda really give up on everyone now!! Gave up! Leave my life okay. Leave my thoughts, although saying it out is easy, but it might not be tt easy afterall, Sigh.. Maybe really saying tt u dont actually love me already might help me. help me forget you. relieve me from this pain, from all the emotions-jealousy. But if u really wan say u dont love me anymore, pls do it sincerely, cause I know that where will people actually forget someone they like before so easily??
Seriously, pissed off now again. Do whatever you want. I'm already thinking alot, but you, it doesnt need to be on my mind, you can just screw off .. Yea, U..

Friday again!!

So its a friday again, Have 2D. Total lost in the actioncript world, luckily got kevan come and coach me along. He darn scary beside me, his tone and everything, but nevertheless he help me to understand today problem. thanks alot kevan. :D
So after school, I went to find peeps for a while. HOHO, Finna, how was my bua-ing skill? good? hahaha. Eventually left for fyp meeting later with adviser. So fuck sial fyp. The adviser jitao say say say all the scenarios out. what if here, what if there, i hear le also bui song, answer his question, kena fight back i also bui song. Jitao cheerful there and noisy over there, but inside feel like aargh.. i wanna get out of here. Finally it ended after a long period of struggle with him, and off I went to trcc to hear the choir that came from America. Actually went in to find peeps too, but I went to the wrong side. Suay sial!! So after hearing for like 5 mintues, I left as I got korean briefing thingy, help my parents go listen.. The chior amazing GRACE was nice. Simply awesome, hope there are more performance like that. So entertaining.
Went off to CWP and had dinner later. Gastric pain, bought korean spicy soup, but in the end never finish, do not have the appetite, guess i starve myself too much le today. :(
Went back after that. sian. Today is such a sian day. You sian, I sian. Ask u why? no wan say. :( Really feel like we went back to the period where we were cold to one another. Really had this aweful feeling today - jealousy. OH god. I wanna take this feeling out of me, It makes me hard to breathe lately. U dont even want to share whats on ur mind, i dunno how to approach u either way..
Its very easy to see whether who i'm in love with, my close friends might know, when i like someone, I will tend to...... s-e-c-r-e-t..

Shall stay cheerful on, wan to influence everyone to be cheerful. Guess doing something stupid always is what I'm best with. I'm such a failure. hohoho.

It might be something good.

This was taken when emily Noona came back for graduation day. HOHO, nice to see u again. IT WAS NICE!! the picture is good. I edit de. hahaha


Anyway, today is thursday, meaning I'm having 3D today. It was okay, but very troublesome, I had trouble with the entrude thing. 1 pm still got napfa briefing thingy somemore, really had no time today. && I forget to tap my card, wonder my DA points will get deducted anot??
It was so boring. Went to meet CH and pisces immed after i end class, Kevan came soon. && off to eat.. Guess everyone is feeling a bit not themselves today.
It was quite an emotional day as well. Struggling. hahahaa.
tsk tsk, Finna, not good uh, bad mouth me. hahahaha.
But I guess everything is ok now.. Should be okay.
If u still feeling down, I might stand by you. I'll stand by you.. hohoho
Tomorrow might have FYP meeting and also having korean parents briefing thing. Might not get the chance to meet my peeps tmr.
Wonder tmr still will awkward nt? hahaha.
Today really is spam songs, Sang alot of songs with kevan, jason, lina, finna and ethan outside. Really shiok.
Wonder should i go boot camp this sat and sun? Really feel so xtra being there. hmmm.
Ivan uh, my 10 bucks uh :( !!!
Really random, I do not have proper placing or right order to what I want to write, just got anything come out on my mind, den I pia le.
Shit, the jealouusy feeling might be back again. Fuck this.. Totally hate this feeling. I should not continue, cause I know it will end badly for you. :( But, my heart is struggling.. sigh.

Good improvement.

Today very shiok. I slept till 11++.
Wake up, bath le, immediately rush to school for FYP meeting.
Bought sushi for my peeps as well. But they not enuff, so I everything buy some. just tikam oni. lol
But the bus journey and the waiting time for the bus was so darn long. The sushi had turn warm, it was no longer that nice already. I'm so sorry. :(
So yeah, went to school, start to distribute sushi. I actually bought more than enough, but suddenly like not enuff. So I just 'qian jiu' a bit.
Gave Esther first, den jason, Ethan 3rd, Ch next and lastly Finna. I started from the 6tth floor, its not about the order ok. hmph. Lina pon school, i no wan give de, but its ok. hahahaha :D
Gave the rest to my FYP teammates, shi jia and wanling. Felt a bit of achievement in making them full.
Thanks Pisces, Jason and lina for the facebook post as well and ethan for msn nick. hahaha.
So after FYP meeting, actually not, I just go off halfway to meet the peeps. But I finished my FYP assignment to me ok, I made the prototype of the website already. Tmr shall show my adviser..
So today. hmmm, Good improvement, really!!! but I wish there were more. Hoho..
Come come, everyone hug, and bua one another. LOL. Finna *winks.
Really love u guys siol. Today we spend time tgt till 10 again. It's like last time. come come. clap for ourselves once again. haha.
Happy birthday to Justin Lee too. Got wish must tell me ok? I will fulfil for u. hohohoho.
Its hard to make a decision yeh. Things like going out of control. Thats my opinion. You were getting closer to me.. I really cant stand it. Two things I hated most from anyone are scolding vulgar or something bad at me, for example like idiot, stupid, fuck u all those. In msn, I is dont mind, but not in real life. Second thing i hate most are people keep touching me. Touch hand, face and etc.. It gives me the creep, stop it okay. I'm not tt close with anyone to let them have body contacts with me already.. No one, except my parents and my grandmother..
You might have the feels for me, but nope, I'm not having it.. Due to alot of reasons. so yeah..
It is really depressing when you have so much to say, but you just did not have the courage to tell the person, cause U are scared it might hurt the feeling of tt person too. So I shall keep quiet..
Hope any sensible person who see this, will know their own limit ok.
Pisces are so emotional. hahaha.

Stop!

Today dunno for what reason, my laptop could not be on. It says the user logon server server are unable to logon. Going to IT helpdesk tmr. Hope they can fix this problem.
Ya, Today class end fucking late again, gosh, this cant go on. It is making me hating tt module when tt module is actually so fun. :(
I just feel so fuck, when someone in ur life. Just appears and ask u questions that are really sensitive. U just dunno how to reply them. Ok, maybe I am avoiding them, cause i do not wanna think about it also, It just feel sad sometimes to think about those things. Thats why the best thing I'll do is to avoid it. I'm not really a brave person who will face all this nonsence, So I am going to avoid it.. OK, got it!!!
I'm kinda over you now, might still be abit obsessed. But i'm trying my best, Treating u like a friend and stuff, Its hard, but I'm getting used to it now.. Since most of the time, i'm ignored. hahaha..
I'm really trying to runaway from all this, but the reality just keep smash my forehead everytime. *My head really hurts now. Ouch Ouch!!
I really hope things will be like last time. Where all of us have fun, even before when the family tree were made. It was really the upmost happest time. I'm missing it..
Really kinda want to go to korea now, escape from everything now, and come back in a new me. :(((.
Should I go batam?!?! sigh..

Numb

Sometimes I think I'm gay..
just numb to all the girls out there.. hmmm

Guess what? I dunno too..

Everyone, this is a kiss from me~~ hoho.
As you probably know, today is a monday. LOL.
Illustration again, and today I'm supposed to remake a shutter poster.
But i lazy upload, next time ok.. anyway its not really horror. So disappointed.
&& I might have a chance in getting F also, tts what the faci say, despite my hardwork .. sigh.
Today first break, went to eat at food haven. After that Ch, esther, haslin, jason and ivan went up to find me, Omg omg. Love u guys. haha.
Ch wear couple shirt with me again. LOL. :D n1 partner...

So, after that, was a disaster, Case 39 and so on and so forth..
Randy, i really envy u, OMG OMG...
hahaha.
Sometimes its hard to forget you, cause you keep appearing in my life..
But I will try..
Darn it, why dont u just like me. wont it end better tt way ? LOL.

Having facial right now, my face very solidify.
It stings my skin too. Very 'spicy'..

Why I nvr experienced it like what other ppl did?
Why am i always the unlucky one??

I think we are falling apart?
So what can I do??
Nothing??
Or something??
I think I shall heed their advice for once!!!

Mothers day :D

So today was mothers day. && i gave my mom present by hugging her and kissed her, saying: Ma, happy mothers day yesterday le ok. hmph
So today, my mom actually told me ystd that today I need to wake up at 8 in the morning, cause we going dental, as in they, I am going just to accompany them and after that go fetch my dad from airport.
But despite how much my mom scream or kick me in the morning, I am so tired and I really could not wake up. So I said to my mom: Ma uh!! u guys go first, i later den go find u guys..
After this, they left, and i went back to slp. HOHO, sleeping is so important.
So I managed to wake up at ard 11. && off i go to help my dad thing and also feeding my guinea pig. Thinking of it, I haven even name my guinea pig yet..
After that, I still did not care about meeting them, haha, I went to see new one piece episode. It was so nice, stupid ivankov, so funny. haha
I finally went to bath at 11.30 and off I go to find them at 12. Took bus all the way to tampiness mall to find them.
That place was so big, it was really difficult to find them. FYI: my sis driving very dangerous, I dont dare to sit in her car anynmore. She speeding like fast and also I feel dizzy sitting in her car. haha
Went to airport and fetch my dad. && we go to our old place and have steamboat, also celebrating mothers day for my grandma..
It was meaningful todayk, hanging out with my family, my grandmother, my aunty and my cousin. My dad even bought many jeans and shirt for us when he came back from malaysia. Yes !!!

Was feeling kind of high and low today. I think i know why.. but sigh... I shall not think about it anymore.. But would u still feel the same for me like before?? Can u at least tell me??
Haslin got new phone. LGGW620, walao, fucking jealous right now! When will it be my turn??

08.05.2010

Hi everybody.

Today was awesome, Its just like a brand new start for me.. I did something to myself, if ure smart u will figure it out.. :d

After that , went to meet haslin, ch, esther and we went shopping. Wanted to shop for my mom mother's day present, but I couldnt find anything she like..

So we went to ate ice, woohoo, hot chick, darn nice..

&& after tt we ion and walked, ate takoyki, darn ncie too, but its very hot..

So continue walked walked, and we managed to take neoprints. & I PAY FOR IT, but its ok. :D

I got the most pictures, it serves as a memory too ok. :D

We also took alot of pictures, dinner settle at sakura, as its really hard to find a halal food store at town.. haha.

Anyway, I'm nt in a r/s with haslin. so stop asking ok fb peeps.. OMG, i'm so sleepy right now.. I'm going to go slp soon. have to wake up at 8 tmr as tmr is mother's day celebration. Wish my mom happy mother's day. I realy love you, and i gave u a kiss just now.. haha

Miss all my peeps, hangout hangout. I wan buy new ear stud. and thanks jason for everything as well. hohoho. Lets bring u go cut hair, hoho, lets go..

If i thought of anything new, I will blog. But yea, there's no use to keep fretting over it anymore. The person has gave up on you le, move on u idiot..

Its a friday.

Today school was shiok. But I was late, but its ok, got codes from terrence and explanation of codes from quek. Still successful in cheating the faci that I did the codes myself, haha, sorry quek. LOL.
After that, I went to meet my cypher peeps. && finally we watched finish Ip Man 2.
Stupid CH finally showed us a touching short video which makes finna, esther and me teared. Finally some tears to let out, I feel more happy now.. haha.
CH uh ch, hug hug, Finna uh, hug hug, Haslin uh haslin, hug hug, Esther uh esther hug hug, Lina uh lina hug hug... All the emo one should be here le ba. hahaha.
Met haslin after tt, as she went ikea, but she did not bought any salmon for me :(
I am so freakin hungry right now.. Empty stomach tends to make me think alot.
I haven watch my valentine day, who want to watch with me? Iron man 2. and more?????
Today heard a song from Jinglie comp, it is an old song, but it kinda depicts my inner feelings.



It had been quite a time, since I teared in front of my friends. So this time, I think I might stand stronger. I will try hard to forget you, as I had a feeling that there is no use going on, since we were like very cold to one another and stuff. Its very difficult to just move on, but hey, who cares, i shall just try it...

To my dancing peeps: how are you guys? so long nvr hang out with u all, nor there is any fyp thingy. Guess you guys are very busy with momentum. Take care of your body and drink more water ok, shall see u guys on performance itself, You guys will definitely shine.. :D
I see everyone like scared of me to bua their face now!! ohh~~ guess i did it too roughly, the bua-ing should be showing my love, not my roughness. so sorry to haslin and finna :D Next time i bua more gently ok...
Want to dye my hair, want to cut my hair, want to buy present for my mom as mother's day is coming. When will I ever accomplish all this???

It might be over.

So cheerful me is coming back, but that doesnt mean i wont think. Just that I wont be as emo in front of u guys, i will be cheerful :D.
I understand that everything is tough, and there is something which people dont accept or understand the actions u did.
It justs been my problem from last time till now, letting my emotions taking over and not let my brain think. I would just say things out which my emotion and feeling think is right and regretted it later. I guess pisces are like tt. I shall blame it on horoscope.
I often tell white lies, as I am too afriad or shy to admit something. In fact, I told alot of lies, lame jokes and white lies. As I did not really want people to know me that well, I wanted to be someone which is secretive. I do not like to share things with people, hardly even with my close friends. Just want to be kept alone at sometimes, do not really wan other people to bother me.
I intend to go somewhere else after the welcome tea alone to think about things, but ...
Ok, so anyway, I'm really sorry for saying those things to you, its just one of my unchangable habit again. But under all this rubbish, I really do care for you, that why i said tt. Not something you will understand too, but sometimes the things I say is really out of concern, its not to make you angry or sad or disappointed in me..
Sometimes, I just wonder would u think of me once in a while, want to hold my hands, kiss my cheeks or even be in a r/s with me..
Haha, but I dont think that will even be a question now? cause simply you wont even answer it anymore.
Your actions and attitude are rather cold too. But I'll just still be there, to lend u a helping hand too.
So, really! really! if one day, you could just let me fully understand what you feeling or thinking now? It would be best, cause I really do not know how to approach you right now, other den standing one side, silently watching over you.
At least, i'm happy that this friendship wont end, but guess we werent tt much close as friend too.
hahaha.
I'll stand by you, i'll stand by you, wont let nobody hurt you, i'll stand by you...
Today was okay. Partial from school since i'm late, drag haslin with me..
Went cwp, bought ear stud for myself and ear sticks for lina and jason.
Haslin tsk, nvr buy anything except foods and fingernails paint. LOL.
Went back to school, slack slack, play play, watch half of ip man 2, shall continue tomorrow.
Play dota, lost terribly, sorry jason. u have a lousy teammate.
But i wont be touching it, dont want to be addicted to it again. Year 3 is a very busy year..
Thanks lina, acc me to take out my helix there de ear stud. woots, kind of painful. :D
I want dye my hair soon. To be honest, everytime i dye my hair, its for a reason. I dye blond cause of a reason too. This time dye-ing back to black or dark brown, will be for another reason. There is always reason for what I did, I'm not just doing it for fun...
Hoping tomorrow would be better, when then the misunderstanding be over ?!?! beats me...
Who wants to watch iron man 2 with me in cinema???? :( but not on weekends, i not free. :(

Cheerful me.

I am going to be cheerful!!!!

Stay tune to Cheerful junhao part 1

No more emo me. :D

Why? why? why...

Haha, its been long since i put up eyeliner le. This is a dare, tts why i put, do not be mistaken. haha..

I went to Pet Republic with haslin today. I was so late in meeting her, cause too engrossed with guinea pigs and chatting in the morning.. Sorry haslin.

There seriously heaven for me, there were chinchilla, bunnies and guinea pigs and hamster everywhere. Totally love that place now, shall visit it more often. But the sad thing is that it is located at Eunos. But there is one branch at jurong east also. hahaa.

Went back to school. Today everyone like emo. :(

Can u guys cheer up, although i'm in no position to say this too.

I think I quite emo myself today also...

But luckily ethan was there, he like crapping all the way. Very funny.

Its been long since i seen our group laugh like hell again. hahaha. Thanks ethan for being there, and pls stay and not go againn :D

Korean trip is so troublesome, must scan and hand in parental form and passport as well. Also must hand in the edusave form thingy too. Fuck this process.

Luckily eric and zuhrah going, or else, i will be so alone there. :(

Cheryl, where are you?? i miss u.. I got VD and glee for u le. come come come :D

I guess i'm just not strong enough, not determined enough, do not have the perserverance.

Its been one day, and I think I'm weak and unsure already.

Dunno whether this decision and move is correct or not?

I'm missing you already

Fuck this. Fuck my emotions.

I really hate myself.

Nvm, Like u even care..

Hmmm, shall bottle it up once more.. :(

CH, lina, finna, mai emo liao. Come come, i lend u my shoulder and hug, cry on me :D

& finna, i'm here, just dial 9******* to find me. :D

Tmr Ip man 2 anyone? haha.

Worst day every, Fuck my life... Want to get away from all thiss, sobbing right now, guess it will be swollen tmr.. but yeah. I shall disappear soon. * Thats what I am feeling right now.

Today shall be the last.

I'm not going to say anything anymore.
U better not regret for what u said or did.
& this time, i really mean it.
Thanks lina for ur blog.
So see you...
Shall blog later with haslin and me with eyeliner pictures later on.
They say we look alike.
hahaha, couple face eh. LOL

Did we really have couple face?

Ivan go ask other people, and they said we look like siblings or couples!!

I think cause I look dark, and she look like chinese.

So what you guys think? give comments? hoho

Dont take this too personally, just for fun. :D

I had a couple of experience before,

where last time , the people who i like,

we never get tgt,

and they kinda regret.

I'm not being BHB or what..

But just hope you will think through before making any decision..

Gentlemen outing.

So, let me blog about what happened today first. Wa, basically today, illustration, fun and exciting. hoho. After that supposed to have fyp meeting, but my teammates say I need not go, but in the end they also do nothing. Lucky I never insist on going. So I went to meet up with cypher peeps today. Someone left to find them first and nvr see my msn. =.= , So I go and fetch haslin before I go find them.

Haha, today CH and esther pon sch, in the same class, watch ip man 2 tgt, wonder what they did? Ok la, I dont really intend to pon today, but got the mood too. LOL. But luckily I didnt. I wanted to see movie? Ip man 2? Iron man 2? Date night, anyone???

Went to play truth or dare, contents shall not be spilled here, u know i know ok. But I had fun playing it though. HAHA

Couple shirt with CH today, cause jason forget to wear, he thought we are wearing rainbow colour shirt today for real, wa lao. jitao sian jii bua. :(

Haha, back to ystd outing.

I guess it was good. Went town, from dhoby walk all the way to ION. Shopped at pull and bear, we all bought the same outfit, intend to wear today, but as I mentioned earlier, someone PS us. :(

haha, we went to eat. CH want to eat sushi, so we were like okay, agree, lets go in. * After sitting down, see the menu. Our eyes were like O.O .. The price were way too expensive, A sushi cost like many bucks, so our most embarrassed moment came, We walk out of the restraunt shy-ly and went to hong kong cafe. God, that was like so embarrassing. Brrrrrr...

We were like darn full after hong kong cafe. So very bo liao, jason and I acc CH to seng kang before we took bus home. First time i take such a big detour before I head home. HAHA. but, sigh.. It was really unpleasant. Moody night. But glad, its over, i hope.. haha.

FYI: jason walks darn slow. & sometimes he walk darn fast.. LOL.

Haha, cnt think of much now, my mind super tired, so this is a short description of what I had ystd and today :D

& Finna, pls dont emo ok. Want cry next time tell me. My shoulder and chest always available, for you, I will go train my chest muscle, until it become B cup :D